Hard!

Good morning brothers and sisters. Not to long ago I wrote about my Judas. I wrote that Jesus loves my Judas so must I. And everything came to a head not to long ago. As we sat face to face, I had to decide right then and there what I was going to do. And I felt this nudging in my heart, let it go. And I kept saying, but God... And He reminded me what is said in Romans 12:17-21. Repay no one evil for evil. Have regard for good things in the sight of all men. If it is possible, as much as depends on you, live peaceably with all men. Beloved, do not avenge yourselves, but rather give place to wrath; for it is written, "Vengeance is Mine, I will repay," says the Lord. Therefore, If your enemy is hungry, feed him. If he is thirsty, give him a drink; for in so doing you will heap coals of fire on his head. Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good. It was at that moment, that I knew I needed to heed the nudging of the Holy Spirit. And let me tell you, it is hard. It is so very hard. I wanted to lash out, I wanted to scream. I wanted to put back on them what they have unloaded on me. But God... What a beautiful statement. I did what the Holy Spirit was telling me to do. I let it go. And the joy and the peace that came afterwards was nothing that I can describe. And to be quite honest, it released me of all the negative thoughts and feelings that I had about them. Rivers of living water started flowing again. I didn't realize how much that had weighed me down. But I also can't explain the MAJOR blessings that I didn't see coming AFTER I did what I was told to do. Walking in obedience is hard but so worth it. It might not feel like it at the time but I know what it did for me. I love Jesus. I want to be Christ-like and some days it is just one thought at a time. Rise up child of God, rise up!